To the girl I once knew,
To the girl I know now,
I spent months,
waiting,
pining for your validation,
hoping
I was good enough
for you.
But now,
you’ve dwindled.
It has all faded.
You just feel so far
gone.
Past your breaking point,
praying everyday
to watch
the numbers on the scale
go down.
Hoping your spirits might
go up.
How could I ask you
To fix yourself?
To know that you’re
pretty enough,
skinny enough.
Yet, I can see you
desperately drowning.
Not sure which way is
up
or which way is
down.
I can’t tell if you really want to know anymore.
You told me a story.
Placed a strawberry on your tongue.
Felt the rush of
freedom.
Joy.
It’s been a while hasn’t it?
But then there was
Panic.
Compulsion.
Every seed setting in as
another decimal on that scale.
“I couldn’t bear-y it”,
you told me.
There you were,
that girl I once knew!
the funny girl for which
I had spent every day,
just hoping
I would see again,
wishing I never lost sight of.
I still see you
But I can’t bear to look at you
the same again.
The enjambment of the poem adds a lot to its emotion and meaning.
ReplyDeleteMy favorite aspect of your poem was enjambment. It allows important lines/stanzas to stand out from the rest. My favorite line was "How could I ask you to fix yourself?" because it shows how you can't "fix" someone because we are not emotionless machines. It shows the complexity of depression and how difficult it is to pull someone or yourself from it. I can relate to this poem because it reminds me of my cousin.
ReplyDeleteThe most interesting and apparent device throughout your poem is all of the line breaks. There was some enjambment, but there were also lines that were full sentences. It creates a nice balance between the two. The line I liked the most was "wishing I never lost sight of." It conveys that sometimes, people do drift apart for whatever reason. It isn't always within our control, but it's always sad whenever it happens.
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