Chronic Confliction
It’s hot then cold.
Slow then fast.
I mistake it, I confuse it.
But can’t afford to lose it.
These things never last.
I need it, I feel it.
A reason to push on.
This feeling, so appealing.
So undeniably strong.
I can see how, I can see why
It can never do any wrong.
It betrays me, it plays me.
I hate it, but I don’t.
Addicted, afflicted.
The problem was always my own.
I guess, I stress.
I’ve never felt so alone.
It’s perfect, and I’m not.
It’s full, and I’m empty.
I fear, I pretend.
Fleeting and carefree.
It has what it needs
But it doesn’t have me.
I pursue, I chase.
My shadow, my tail.
But tell me why
It feels like I’m trying to fail
If I win it, I lose it
But maybe that’s fine
I preach, I reach.
I stumble and fall.
I lack it’s reason
For it to stand tall.
It is my present
And I can’t let it go.
My favorite aspect of the poem was all the contrasts especially in the first stanza because it helps show the conflicting feelings that are felt.
ReplyDeleteMy favorite line is "But tell me why it feels like I'm trying to fail"
I can also connect to this because often times I feel conflicted, and the line "It feels like I'm trying to fail" connects to me as well.
I think that this poem does a great job of capturing the overwhelming emotions that we all feel at times. Some of the lines such as "The problem was always my own" and "It feels like I’m trying to fail" show the self doubt that I can connect to.
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