I Just

I Just

I just -

I don’t get it.

I want to,

But I don’t.

How-

How do they do it?

How are people… normal?

Like-

I’m in class, right

And someone is talking to me

And they’re a nice person

I want to be friends with them

But it’s  me.

I’m like

I’m like a spaz who can’t act normal for a single moment.

And so I’m over here saying weird shit cause I think it’s funny,

Or I think they’ll like me if I say it

Or -

Or  something.

But it comes out all wrong

And I just don't get it.

How do people do it?

Why am I  so weird?

I just -

It’s just that -

I -

I don’t get it -

I stumble over every single word I say,

And yet I don’t stop talking

Please-

Please, for god’s sake,

Someone shut me up

Because we all know that I won’t do it on my own

And see,

Things are fine when I’m in a group.

Good, even

Maybe.

Maybe not.

But-

It’s like

I can’t talk

Or -

Or I talk too much

And it’s obvious I’m making a fool of myself

But I just -

What am I supposed to do?

Tell me,

What am I supposed to say?

I just -

I don’t get it.

I want to,

But I don’t